Monday, December 7, 2009
Letting the Light In
Just a few days after I wrote my last post, Brad and I received some news that has brought me to my knees. I am not sure I will ever be able to write about it here (although I intend to try) but regardless, I think we can all universally identify with feelings of grief.
This has been a year that has fundamentally changed me. I've heard it said that there are years that build you up and those that knock you down, and this year was most certainly the latter. I feel like I've been "stripped down to the studs," to use a term from all the HGTV I've been staring at lately. At my core I am still the same person of course, but its as if I've been broken apart and all the pieces are being rearranged. My priorities are different. My perspective has changed.
But just when I thought I might not make it out the other side, I woke up on Saturday morning feeling the slightest bit like myself. When I could smell the scents of coffee coming from the kitchen I walked in the room to see the sun streaming in - something that I haven't seen (or at least noticed) in weeks. On Sunday I made something edible, which I will share here tomorrow, and today I am writing. Maybe a few of those core pieces weren't lost after all...