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Monday, December 7, 2009

Letting the Light In


Just a few days after I wrote my last post, Brad and I received some news that has brought me to my knees. I am not sure I will ever be able to write about it here (although I intend to try) but regardless, I think we can all universally identify with feelings of grief.

This has been a year that has fundamentally changed me. I've heard it said that there are years that build you up and those that knock you down, and this year was most certainly the latter. I feel like I've been "stripped down to the studs," to use a term from all the HGTV I've been staring at lately. At my core I am still the same person of course, but its as if I've been broken apart and all the pieces are being rearranged. My priorities are different. My perspective has changed.

But just when I thought I might not make it out the other side, I woke up on Saturday morning feeling the slightest bit like myself. When I could smell the scents of coffee coming from the kitchen I walked in the room to see the sun streaming in - something that I haven't seen (or at least noticed) in weeks. On Sunday I made something edible, which I will share here tomorrow, and today I am writing. Maybe a few of those core pieces weren't lost after all...

11 comments:

Molly said...

Darci, you know I'm always here to listen. Many hugs to you.

And maybe, go back and look at your post from October 1st. Seems like that might be a good one to remember!

:0)

stephanie michele said...

I'm sorry to hear that you've been going through some rough times, but relieved that you are slowly finding your way back to being you. Sending many good vibes your way!

brooke @ claremont road said...

hugs to you... I am so sorry that you are going through a tough time.

Been There Bride said...

Wow, I can really identify with this eloquent post. I also got married last fall and of course hoped for the best year of my life. While 2009 had some wonderful moments, I also faced extremely difficult situations. I felt run-down and just not like myself. I couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel either, it just seemed like time stretched out infinitely before me.

But slowly...things began to change. And now I really do feel much better and am excitedly looking forward to 2010.

I think 2009 was a year that definitely challenged me, but ultimately made me a better person, a person more prepared for what's to come in 2010. 2009 was about having patience and 2010 is going to be about that patience paying off. I hope the same is true for you!

HazelnutPhotography said...

Darci, I'm so sorry to hear it's been one of those years. Virtual hugs & kisses to you.

Julia said...

hang in there, Darci! Hugs....

jw said...

Yay - so glad you're back!

Kelly Oshiro said...

Sending a big hug your way!

ami @ elizabeth anne designs said...

any time you need anything i'm here. big hugs coming your way.

Jenny said...

Beautiful post, D.

Tara said...

Darci, I am so sorry you went through what was quite obviously a very difficult time to say the least. Sending hugs your way.